I have not stopped working toward health and wellness even in the midst of a crazy busy and quite hot summer. I have not lost any weight since my initial weight loss when I started this blog, but I haven't gained anything either, so I think that's good. I am a bit discouraged because I really haven't lost any more, but I know that I'm still on the right track to better health.
One thing I have learned this summer is how my busy busy life is directly reflected in my eating habits and exercise routines. I Always, always, always put my health on the back burner. That is something I have been working on, and still need to desperately continue to work on. This habit is really hard for me to break.
Another thing I have realized is that not just busyness affects my health routines, but also circumstances. I really need to stop focusing my mental energies on the things happening in my life and around me. For example, summer is over and I have to get all the kids ready to start school. I homeschool my 2 youngest and my oldest goes to our local high school. Her schedule came in the mail and it had some huge mistakes on it, so now I feel like I have to do someone else's job and get it worked out (a ripple in my very scheduled life). I did get it worked out over the phone, but we will see if we get the new schedule in time to know that it was really worked out. If not, I will have to get to the school the day before school starts to get the new schedule and if it STILL is not fixed, my daughter will have to talk to her guidance counselor on the first day of school. I have to get my reports faxed for my 2 youngest and in order to do that I literally have to move the printer/fax machine upstairs to plug it into the modem so I can fax (and there is always a degree of fiddling involved)....yet another ripple....agh....I know all these things seem little, but they definitely add up and fast.
Also, circumstances affecting other people in my life affect me as well, and my attitude toward making the effort to take care of myself. It's weird but, I seem to get sad, not really depressed, but sad enough that I focus on helping/fixing/doing anything to make it better. Yesterday, one of my closest friends was having a really bad day and there was nothing I could really do, it had nothing to do with me, it was just sad and it made me sad to see how discouraged they were. Then this morning, my husband shares with me his day yesterday and it was just one of those days. He works 2 jobs and is being put between a rock and a hard place in one job and then has to go directly to the second job and yesterday was 'problem day' with both. So, here I sit blogging and wanting to do SOMETHING to fix the issues that came up for him. And it's not really the actual work (I really can't help there), it's more like the attitudes flying around and believe you me, I can handle other people's 'tudes rather efficiently and ruthlessly especially when they are upsetting someone I care about. Not saying I'm right, just saying I'm almost salivating at the thought of getting the opportunity to 'take care of things'. Must be that Italian blood in me.
All these distractions...all this busyness, it keeps me from focusing on taking care of my health, watching what I put in my mouth or WHEN I eat. Sometimes I don't eat ALL day, that's the worst thing for me to do. Point is, I take these distractions in and I willingly focus on them and purposely NOT focus on my health. This is something that HAS TO CHANGE for me if I am ever going to get healthier.
So, onward and upward today. Yes, I have a lot to do, yes I will be faced with other people's issues and attitudes as well as my own, but I WILL take the focus off of all that and I WILL purposely focus on what I need to do to be healthier. Yes, life will continue even if I don't get the chance to give someone a good tongue lashing, if I don't get all the dog hair off the floor, if I don't get those plants into the ground, if I don't get to the bank, if I don't get to the store, if I don't get the laundry done and if I don't get my teenager out of bed before noon. Two things that WILL be accomplished today is healthy eating and exercise.
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